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Artist Name:  Lizthayra Carreras
Tumblr: http://lizthayracarreraslove.tumblr.com 
Art piece name:  ”We are all mad here”

tumblropenarts:

Artist Name:  Lizthayra Carreras

Tumblr: http://lizthayracarreraslove.tumblr.com 

Art piece name:  ”We are all mad here”

My writings on wattpad

Welcome to the New Life

My last blog entry is almost exactly 2 years old. I browse through my old stuff and I see my desperation then, my illness; and I see wonderful art, photos, paintings, gifs, quotes. 

Again it is autumn. I have turned on the heating and the dust that has gathered in the radiators smells nicely. I have my candles on and play an old Rolling Stones record on my record player. 

So just to catch up: after my last entry followed another year of struggle for good old life. Deep down under the sea, I’d say. Where the monsters live. I won’t go into that. 

Eventually things changed. A year ago I found a job, part time, at the university. I got to know new people, found my way back into society. Caught up with the world. I remember how tired I was in my first winter of recovery. Just from the speed, I guess. The speed of things changing. In the morning I worked, in the afternoons I helped out at a Borderline Personality Facebook page, counseling, sharing, being there. In the new year (this year) I took up studying again. After careful consideration I chose theology  - ultimately going for religious studies. It has broadened my horizons, enlightened my days and fulfilled me. 

I like my job. My boss is nice, my colleague is a good companion.

I love my studies. The second term is coming, I have passed all first term exams with straight As. At the library I feel at home. I just love to sit there at one of the long wooden tables surrounded by other students and shelves full of books. 

My daughter is happy. She has a loving and caring boyfriend. She is finishing school this year, almost grown up. 

I’m still with my partner. We’ve been married three years now. 

We have moved back to my old flat and made it our home again. 

In summer, I travelled to Israel on my own - a fantastic experience. 

Even my dogs are still here, completing my family. 

I guess I was lucky. Who would have thought? I had never dreamt I’d fall so deep again and then, at the bottom, I’d never dreamt I find my way back up again and am alive. I’m drug free, sober as hell, appreciating every new day that brings not only the lack of pain but joy. I rejoice on every day I am well. And I count my blessings. I guess I was lucky. 

P.S. Today I opened an account on wattpad and published a new English short story and some old stuff written in German. 

Things to stay alive for

hm….

the moment when depression subsides and you feel like a human being again

when you turn the heating on in autumn and it smells like warm dust

the happiness of a little young dog and the faithfulness of an old dog

good conversations with friends, especially if you only have a few good friends and you can talk honestly

having good dreams at night

sometimes, only sometimes, stealing from one of those big stores because it doesn’t hurt them anyway and it feels like revenge for your unwanted work force

kickboxing

drifting off to sleep knowing you have made it through another day

being of help to someone

drawing and painting when inspiration kisses you

late summer sun

early afternoon autumn sun

the look of woods

sunsets over the sea

just-art:

DarkLight by Shann Larsson
Mixed media
Artist: Tumblr / Website

(I’d paint in this style, too.) 

just-art:

DarkLight by Shann Larsson

Mixed media

Artist: Tumblr / Website

(I’d paint in this style, too.) 

likeafieldmouse:

Mark Rothko - Orange, Red, Yellow (1956)

Mark Rothko is the best! His color fields are humming, flimmering, if you stand before one. Go see an original if you can! 

likeafieldmouse:

Mark Rothko - Orange, Red, Yellow (1956)

Mark Rothko is the best! His color fields are humming, flimmering, if you stand before one. Go see an original if you can! 

(Source: crossconnectmag)

Dec 6

just-art:

Illustrations : by Anthony Jean

Dec 6
mydarkenedeyes:

Jeremy Young - Life’s Deadly Disease (2010)

mydarkenedeyes:

Jeremy YoungLife’s Deadly Disease (2010)

Dec 6
zeroing:

Martina Nehrling

zeroing:

Martina Nehrling